(fyi...i don't take photos while driving...i was a passenger)
Just the other day I was driving alone in my car and a specific memory popped in my head. It was something that happened over 10 years ago and I was in a situation where I had to be spunky and daring and brave. I had not thought of that particular memory in so long and when it popped in my mind it made me smile, even giggle a little. Then it caused me to pause and think...where was THAT girl? Where was the person who was so brave and daring and fearless? Why am I now filled with doubt and unsure about everything I am doing most of the time? I never used to second-guess myself so much...why do I now?
What is it about time and getting a little older that has made me not sure of who I am and what I want to do? I have done some pretty gutsy things in my life, and now I seem to stop before I even take a chance. Why is that?
This is something I am going to have to work on. I need to keep asking myself, "Where is that girl"? and I need to keep asking until I find her.
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yes. why do we do that.
ReplyDeletelove your honesty
Hmmm...maybe with age comes greater awareness of yourself. Maybe you question things now and have doubt because you know it's better to step back and evaluate before any sudden steps are taken. :)
ReplyDeleteTricia, I too did a lot of gutsy things when I was younger and I think it is completely normal to be more cautious as we age and realize more of the dangers out there. Besides, some of the dangers seem to be increasing! For instance it would not be a good idea now for a young girl (who happened to have long blonde hair) to travel around Europe alone on trains, yet that's what I did and didn't think a thing about it. So, sadly, more caution in some things is justified...
ReplyDeletebut it doesn't mean that we can't step out of our comfort zones to try new and interesting things and support each other in being brave and spontaneous. Keep pushing on!!
I totally hear you on this...I'm the same way... but i think awareness is the key. And focusing on what brings you joy. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI wonder that too, sometimes. I feel like I didn't have so much doubt before. But maybe it was because I wasn't doing things that meant quite so much to me? It feels like there is a difference between deciding to move 2000 miles away (for example) and quitting my job to try to make a living doing things I love. I can see why I might be filled with more doubts about the second because the first was just a fun experiment.
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